Everything's happening one after the other. Fight after fight. I'm tired. Too tired to bottle everything up. I just wanna burst up. Show them that I've had enough.
I don't know who to let it out to. I'm troublesome, that i know. And so i don't want to trouble anybody. Be it in the family or my social life. Especially towards Adly, my love. He has been very patience towards me. All my stupid attitude. I'm the one who been making most trouble. I'm the troubled girl.
Most of the time, he's the one who have to listen to my nagging, my anger and all my trouble. But i feel guilty everytime. Guilty cause he have to go through all this shit. All because of me.
I've tried to console somebody else but they just don't understand me enough. Or they too have their own problem to bother about. Tweeting somehow makes me look like a pathetic human being. While blogging isn't sufficient enough.
I know, especially in my lowest time, i should pray to the one and only god, Allah swt. I should be telling him all the problems i had instead to his creatures, living or non living things. I'm not a good subject indeed.
I hope as time goes by, i become a better person. My relationship with my family gets better. My relationship with Adly gets even better. And my relationship towards my lord becomes stronger. Amin.
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