It's meant to happen. We are not meant for each other even though i still wish we were. I love you so much and i still do.

I kept crying when there's a chance for me to think. And  i hate it. It seems like every moment i will think of you. You yourself knows that i can't really leave you. You told me that. It still lingers in my head.

Yesterday, 20/11/14, was the last day i became your girl. It sadden me cos i had imagine and had always pray that you would be the one leading the prayer for me. I still pray that you'd be my khalifah. Yesterday was full of tears, so as today. When i hold your hands, i cried. I cried when i realize that it'll be last time i hold your things, see how you eat, how you smoke, everything about you. I cried right after you vanish behind the concrit wall.

Can't you come back to me? Love me naturally? I wonder if you ever loved me truthfully. I don't want any sympathy from you or anyone. I just want something sincere from people around me. I don't think anybody can understand what I'm feeling except Allah. I've prayed, but it's never enough.

Adly Shafiq Bin Jalil Bin Ahmad you're born in
22 June 1995. You're living at circuit road, the same block number as my watsons workplace. You're the youngest of your siblings and you have some temper going on in you. Your Xbox 360 is your baby. It'll always be Double McSpicy Meal Upsize without lettuce add cheese for your McDelivery. If you're broke, you would buy Samporna instead of Winston Red, and red is your favourite colour. You would be puffing like a train if you're out with friends. Mawaddah is a regular place for you. UR is your kompang group that you joined. Your second house is at Ped's. Planless People will be the frequent people you meet. It seems like many more things that i can write but this is enough. This is the basic things about you. I've learned all this in 4 months time.

We've known each other for 4-5 years time. I don't want to lose you or this friendship. I can't bear the thought of it, at all. Even though i always pray to be with you. You as the king of our kingdom, a khalifah of our battles, an imam of a prayer. But i don't wanna risk losing you. Never.